We went to Disneyland a few days ago (11/14/13) They had their Christmas decorations out, and everything was lit up. I hardly took my Canon out while i was there, but this is what i did manage to get.
On top of Twin Peaks on Sunday 11/03/13
It was freezing and windy.
Theres not a day goes by that i don’t find another reason to love being with you, I had way too much fun being with you, and just enjoying another city that wasn’t San Diego with you. You’re absolutely wonderful in every way, and i love you to no ends.
My anniversary was great :).
We, went to amoeba and found some dope shit, it was huge.
we wandered around and ended up at high voltage,
hit millions of milkshakes, and dipped to Disneyland for fire works. :)
thanks baby <3
reblogging because i love this pictures i took and i loved this day.
Fuck his car and fuck his money, he might pay for you but he’s got nothing,I wont be in sight when you realize that I might just have been a more stable support,to the life that you’ll build when he cuts himself short.
I need to be better.
I need to be better.
I need to be better.
I need to be better.
I need to be better.
I need to be better.
I need to be better.
Yesterday we took a spontaneous trip to Disneyland and California Adventures, On a Friday there were hardly any people there, but there were a good amount of families with like 500 kids -_-, Some cashier said she liked my La Dispute shirt so i guess thats cool,
Anywhere i go with her i’m happy, it’s hard not to be when shes around.
Yesterday love and i went to Disneyland and activated our annual passes. It was our first time going to CA Adventures with each other, but we had been to Disneyland before. :) I had so much fun, unfortunately i only took like 3 pictures with my Canon, because i had a killer headache and didn’t feel like using it alot. maybe next time :)
It might be very surprising to you, but i remember everything. I remember the first time you and i had eye contact together at Jared’s christmas party in 2011. I didn’t have a good impression of you because of what was shown to me earlier. (Little did i know that, it wasn’t true and was actually a big mess) I remember wanting to give you back you $50 that you had lost, because i had found it before you had made it aware that it was lost. I didn’t want you to think i had stolen it from you or anything, so i returned it to you as if i had found it while you had lost it, and you were very grateful for it. I remember after the police came and everything i didn’t see you again until January, via skype from our friend. I pulled the easiest ice breaking question that i thought we might be able to answer mutually “do you watch this show___?” question, immediately you responded with a smile and a yes!, which to me was actually a huge relief. I knew we were going to get a long nicely from then on.
I remember becoming friends with you on Facebook a few weeks later, i waited because i didn’t want to seem jumpy for a friend. (not that i was, i had plenty of friends but still i didn’t want to come off that way) After that i remember a few days later you posted a status asking someone to see The Vow with you, and i jumped to it, but i didn’t know we’d actually follow through with it. So we made plans to watch it on Friday February 8th 2012 around 6:30 ish. I remember i came with a water bottle of Bacardi Rum, and it was probably the best irresponsible decision i have ever made. Not that you need alcohol to have fun but you know when you’re UTI you tend to open up a lot easier to people (no that wasn’t my plan either). You got me Lightening Jack’s fries, i had never had them before. they were perfect. I remember i was going to stay at Jareds because he had asked me to, you also offered for me to come crash with you, which probably would have been super cool. I remember I stayed awake for a while at Jared’s. probably till about 1ish you were texting me to wake up cause you wanted to talk to me, then you fell asleep and i was awake around 3 texting YOU to wake up because i wanted to talk to you.
I don’t think i saw you the next week after the movies i think the next time i saw you after that was actually Valentines Day, which you so luckily for me asked me to be your “Valentine” means nothing right? EXCEPT when you showed up with my favorite things in the whole wide world which i documented via Instagram. I remember the night before Valentines day, i was at my friend Palina’s house. I was really drunk and i called you and left you a pretty lengthy voice mail but you were making cupcakes which is why you didn’t pick up you phone. I took the next day off so i could see you which was a nice decision, i didn’t look at you much because i was nervous i didn’t like you at that point but i was just shy around you, and i guess i intimidated you for some reason. Maybe it was because the boys talked about me a lot or i came up in conversation a lot.
I remember being late to work one day, on a half day of yours, i was late because i wanted to see you. You walked from Jared’s to the square and met me at Arely’s i brought you curly fries from jack in the box with butter milk ranch because i knew it was your favorite. We talked for a bit, you dropped you phone 4 times (reasons of which i don’t know i think it just kept “falling” out of your pocket) I was “judging” the man who was talking on his phone and it made you laugh a lot. which of course was A+++ for me right? right. :) I went to work after we had hung out, and didn’t think much of it, but i know i was happy, very happy.
The event following valentines day was Jared’s ASB ball party at his house. We had talked about it and got super into it, how drunk we were gonna get, how much fun we were going to have. I remember being super fucking nervous and my thoughts were very clouded the day of, i got us bracelets which i put on you while you were drunk in the hallway and all i heard was “where did this come from” and i said “i put that there” and of course i got a smile and an omg from you which was probably the highlight of night, After the many rounds of BP which we won, the 2 bottle of UV lemonade, you fell asleep in the hallway which turned into me eating french fries off your sweater, because i had dropped ketchup on it, so you became my plate for the time being. I laid with you for a little then decided i was going to try and find a comfier spot to sleep in, which i found but had to leave you behind, which actually i wish i had just stayed with you because i later found out you wanted me to.
Sometime in between then and May we had gotten closer, I remember one day so well, I had busted a mission to get you food from your favorite places before you got out of school, I started at lightening jacks and got you fires and ranch, headed to McDonalds to get you nuggets, and last but not least I had stopped at KFC to get you a parfait. I made it to school before it ended with just enough time to surprise you which made me the happiest kid ever, You were so happy , for once someone was thinking about you someone that actually cared and that person was me. I had also picked up some ADHD medicine from a friend, and gave you 2, you went home and I stayed with my group, I remember listening to this song by Ocean City Defender and I was riding Jose’s longboard through the parking lot, the sun was still out but you could see the moon fading in, I called you and talked to you for like 45 minutes about how happy I was, how happy you made me, and I told you to go outside because you could see the moon, and that was the 1st time I felt like you were with me in the same place even though you were at home and I was with my friends. I went home after that and I laid down and thought that this was all I needed, you, the happiness you brought me, and it was, I couldn’t even begin to tell you how happy I was, it was just indescribably perfect. Almost as if it wasn’t real. Because yes everything was bright and colorful but it had a tint, a tint of authenticity that symbolized that this was something I would never experience again, which is when I decided that I would set my heart on you, because never before had I ever been so sure about something except for right then.
Fast forwarding to May, we went to a party without our normal group of friends, We drove (well I did) to Lemon Grove to my friend Ana’s house it was a going away party because she was going up to SF for school, We stopped off at the bay, to just kinda sit because we had some time to kill, and you knew something was going to happen that night but you didn’t know what, and i felt the same way too. We drove through downtown, to see the lights, under the Gaslamp sign and onto the freeway, we got to ana’s and you were very nervous but i assured you not to be, and you got along with my friends immediately which was great, we got very drunk very very drunk haha, I had gone to my car to put some stuff away that my friend had given me that i had lent her in high school, and you followed.
It was just us outside, and you sat down behind my car and i sat down with you. I was listening to Swan Soup by Dance Gavin Dance you kept looking at me, mumbling and so i asked you to repeat yourself, you had brought up that you felt as if i didn’t love you like i loved this other friend of ours, when actually i loved you far more than i loved her, and i said “no, i do love you more than i love her, because i don’t love her” You just kind of looked at me and i said “do i need to show you?” your nose touched mine for a good 4 seconds back and fourth, until you tilted your head in unison with mine and i kissed you as softly as i could, as gentle as i could. I remember everything being still, you were being still with me, everything was quiet, and it felt so right. and you started laughing and so did i, we locked my car up and went back inside to hang out with everyone. I remember being slightly confused. What just happened? Did you mean it? Did it in fact mean anything? I wouldn’t know till later, I wanted to get you home at a reasonable hour so your mom didn’t kill me, I got you home at 3, I drove myself home slept till about 5 and woke up and drove to hannahs because we were going to Disneyland.
I remember getting to hannahs and screaming in such happiness because I had finally gotten a kiss. Not just from you but from this magnificent, beautiful girl, who had become my best friend in a short 3 months, I shared everything with you, every important thought, feeling, story, you name it I shared it with you. Nobody will ever be able to comprehend the 24 hour after our kiss, I was happy, I was at the happiest place on earth right after which just added to how happy I was, It was at that point that I realized that this would be the happiest I would ever be, in that exact moment, even though you weren’t physically present it still felt like you were. I wish I could go back, and replay it, so you could feel it, but that’s what makes us, and that situation so perfect, is that those feelings I felt are restricted to me and me only. And nobody can take them from me, because they’re mine and not for another single soul except mine. You woke up about the same time I had gotten to Disneyland, and you apologized for throwing up all over my car, and I didn’t mind, really I didn’t. I just wanted to make sure you were okay and weren’t badly hungover which in case you actually were but yknow you toughed it out through the day. I actually remember (From going through my phone a million times looking for pictures since then) that I screen capped your messages from that day, you had a portugese even to attend and you didn’t want to, you wanted to sleep. We talked the whole day via text while I was at Disneyland, I had a surprise for you and I couldn’t wait to give it to you, and it was the only surprise I had kept a secret, you had gone to the movies with a friend (Which I kinda got bummed about but I knew I could send you to sleep with a smile from me) What really got me was that you kissed ME goodnight and not the guy you had gone to the movies with, which again was A+++ for me.
I got to your house around midnight, after I took Hannah home. I drove you down the street and brought out your bracelet and which you awed at and I could tell you were happy. You and I kissed a few times, before I took you home, It made me probably 10 times more happier than I was the night before. You went into your house, and I went to pick up a friend from her friends house and explained everything, and was relieved that it had finally happened and so was she, because I had so patiently waited for it, and I had finally gotten it.
Every time before then, when i would come see you on Friday’s i would wake up and just have this immense amount of joy come through me, just the anticipation of seeing you, made me happy, this huge smile would come across my face, i missed you without having to say it or even acknowledge it, because i knew you missed me too in between days of seeing me, even if you too didn’t know it or acknowledge it. It’s just one of those things thats there. I would always look forward to seeing you, its what got me through the week, its what got me through work, i always always always had you to look forward to, even if it was just me seeing you for 30 minutes i still let it make me the happiest ever, because those 30 minutes would add up, and they would count for something at the end of the day, my day would start with you, and end with you, and be filled with you whether it was a nice smile you gave me or your hugs or how your hands fit perfectly into mine, no matter WHAT it was, my Friday started and ended with you, and it was perfect and just what i wanted and needed.
I think all those instances before we had established that there were feelings, i was actually mistaking those moments for just being happy, when really i was falling in love with my best friend, but i didn’t know it until later during the summer when things started getting serious. It was almost as if i fell straight in love with you, from the very beginning, as cliche as it sounds, but it makes total sense, and everything we have gone through since then has been nothing but a test, a test of how much we actually love each other, and i’m being very whole heartedly honest when i say that it was all worth it, and that it is mentally and physically impossible for me to love another human being the way i love you, and that you will never find a more truer love than what we have right here.
DISCLAIMER, NOBODY IS ACTUALLY GOING TO SPEND AN HOUR READING THIS WHOLE THING BUT IF YOU DO THANK YOU FOR TRYING LOL :) but really tho sorry its so long. actually im not sorry because their my feelings and fuck all of you peasants.